/most people don't remember, at least not well, holding fast to those bits that inflate them. it's not enough to dramatize the past, to create again the good and bad, but to be haunted by everything that could, and would remain unchanged.

/a remarkable podcast lecture unkowing: the work of modernist fiction by swathmore professor Philip Weinstein. ostensibly an overview of his most recent book, Weinstein delineates how a subject in realist fiction constructs an identity in control by mastering space and time and contrasts that with the ways a subject is undone in the experimental work of kafka, proust, faulkner and freud. take some time, its a fantastic listen.

/got a job pushing book full-time at the graduate library, 4 million volumes, a shepherd of the stacks. salary is poor, but full benefits and lifetime employment; co-worker says the university is a whore. moved again, living a bachelor life now out of a tiny apartment, ann arbor, michigan, back quarter of a house, not bad-like tokyo, plus a full basement done up forgotten like a bomb shelter. sorted a studio and darkroom and going gone underground.

/m4a: aretha franklin - spirit in the dark